yellow: a symbol of courage, freedom and new hope.

Since the expected arrival and known assassination of our hero Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino, Jr., the yellow ribbon has been a custom symbol of hope to us Filipinos. As what I've heard from my parents and other people, upon knowing that Ninoy was arriving on August 23, 1981, people started to tie a yellow ribbon on the posts on the streets to signify that he is indeed is much welcome in coming back of our country. He is welcome to come back since he is the only hope of our lost country. The hope from a tyrant leader who wants to be the supreme being of our country forever. Upon his death, people became more aware of what is happening. many demonstrations were held just to protest his death and the change that the people want to see. Due to this, a snap elections was held. The yellow ribbons became alive again upon the candidacy of the late President Cory Aquino. The election was held and cheated. Marcos won. The people where so angry about the results that they flocked to the EDSA and started a peaceful revolution that overthrew the Marcos Administration. Since then, the yellow ribbon was used as the symbol of the Aquinos', freedom, courage and new hope.

August 1, 2009. this was the date that the Filipino people would never forget. This is the day that the saint of People Power has succumbed to her fatal illness. This began the yellow ribbon fever again. People, showing their grief upon the passing of the late president, started to place yellow ribbons on their house, cars and things. Also, on her interment, the streets were filled with yellow shirts, yellow ribbons, yellow streamers, yellow stickers and yellow confetti. Her passing started an uproar on the 2010 presidential elections. Her son, Benigno Simeon "Noynoy" Aquino III, was pushed by many to be a candidate. he accepted the challenge on her mother's 40th day of passing. Upon declararing it, he topped all the surveys and placing the richest solon in the country in second place.

Some say he isn't fit to become a president. But many of us says he is our only hope. His fight shows the courage of the Filipino people to battle the corrupt and indecent administration and the almost possible winner, Manuel Villar. He showed that even money can't buy the trust of the people. Freedom is the other thing shown by his fight. The liberation from the old bad ways of our government, shown in his ad "Hindi Ako Magnanakaw." Last and the most imporant, new hope. His bid showed us that there still a person who is capable of good morals who can take care of our country. The hope of the Filipino people lies on him, the hope of a new Philippines. A Philippines that is better, peaceful, united, strong, confident, and honest.

The Philippines indeed is in no need of a president who is neither extremely intelligent nor poor. The Filipino people is smart at nature, he can survive everything,an example of this is the Ondaoy and Pepeng disaster. We only need a person who has the wisdom,that came from God, to help him understand the situation of his fellowmen, and the good morals and track record of being non- corrupt.:)

laying my cards on the table

If I were to vote (I'm turning 18 this November. Send some gifts!) this coming May 10, 2010 general elections, these are the people who I am going to vote for just a simple reason.They can give hope to the people because we don't really need a president who is very smart or came from a so- called poor family and nowadays, Filipinos are smart, we only need a guiding hand to push us into action. So here's the list.:)

NGU:

President: Noynoy Aquino
Vice- President: Mar Roxas
Senators: LP Straight..:)


Well, that's straight Liberal Party. And for my province, Cavite.:)

LGU:

Governor: Osboy Campaña
Vice- Governor: Cantimbuhan
Board Member: none
Congressman: Pidi Barzaga(No choice. He doesn't have an oponent. If he has an oponent, He'll still be my bet. What are schoolmates for?haha. But seriously, he made way for the urbanization of our city.:))
City Mayor: Jenny Barzaga
City Councilors: actually, none.

weirdness attacks!

Last night I posted about some things about me but I just remembered that I haven't posted weird facts about me. So let's start listing?:)

1. When I am speaking and thinking, I don't say ""ahm..ahm.gan'to po kasi..ahmm" instead I just look at something, probably the person asking me, my classmate or the ceiling.

2.During exams, when I'm thinking on what should I answer, I look up into the ceiling or bite the cover of my pen. Yucky isn't it but some of my highschool friends thinks that my biting thing works since I usually get the right answer.

3. During exams and I really don't know what to answer, I just simply predict an answer and 97% of my predicted answers are correct.:)

4. I really don't have any standard on buying my clothes,except for the brands. I pick my clothes based on my current mood. I said this line one time: "Ayoko ng madaming print. Gusto ko konti lang.(When I got a non- printed shirt) Ayoko nyan, walang buhay.Walang print." It's like this, I may hate the shirt today but maybe next week maybe I'll buy it.

5. Sometimes I buy some things that I like for a month or two then after using it once, I'll just put it somewhere. Perfect example of this scenario are my shoes. My brown old- school shoes. I just used it once then I hate wearing it now. Another is my rugged- type shoes. I used it and when I arrived at school I felt that I need to change it but I haven't.

6. When I crave for food, it lasts for about a week. Even if I already ate it. The longest food crave that I had was the california maki that lasted for about three weeks.

7. I usually get lower grades on subjects that I love than the subjects that I don't somewhat like. This is only contrary to History.xD

8. I love social studies since first grade. But I hate Philippine History and Economics.

9. I can't simply move on with some people and things. Sometimes I stop moving.

10. I hate k-pop songs.

11. I watch k-pop music videos on myx just to annoy myself.xD

12. For me, it's much easier to study English than Filipino. I love to speak English than Filipino. I just can't do it regularly since there would be confusion for some people.

13. When I talk to myself, I speak in English.

14. I consider my cute dog as a bad luck.xD

15. I broke a cellphone by accidentally dipping it on a canal during my birthday.

16. When I'm in a bad mood, I smash my old motorola phone on the wall, my bed or floor.

17. I love things that are not common to people.

18. I don't like lechon but I like lechon kawali and lechon paksiw.

19. My newest mannerism is pinching my nose.

20. When I like something, I wouldn't use it or eat it right away.

21. During high school, I just study for long tests and periodic exams but now in college I study even for recitations and quizzes!

22. Sometimes, the only thing I'm not lazy to do is breathing.

23. When I smell that our comfort room smells like a cigar, whenever my relatives are here, I always do this: open the door, do some talking like "Ambaho naman, amoy sigarilyo," spary an aerosol whenever there is someone passing behind me.:)

24. I keep money that isn't common.xD

25. I've got a thing for money. In the first hold of the money, I could sense if there is something different like if it has some new inscriptions in it, symbols, font color.

26. Sometimes, I can control my dreams.

27. I hate being greeted on my birthday in front of many people. It makes me pissed off. That's the reason why my most hated day on the calendar is my birthday. I also hate redundant birthday greetings like a person would greet me 30 times that day.

28. My college friends doesn't really know my birthday. Only three of them, I think, knows my birthday.

29. I really don't have a favorite color. I just tell that my favorite color is blue, silver and black for the sake of stopping a non- sense communication.

30. I also don't have a favorite number. 4 is just the number that I always think of.

31. The regular life of earphones for me is 1 month. I don't know why.

32. I don't like things and to do things that common people do. I want to do extra-ordinary things or things that aren't common on my environment but common in better environment.

33. All of the things you have read are all cruel sick jokes.xD

34. Just joking about number 32. All of these things are real.xD

perfectly imperfect.:)

I've been talking too much in this blog yet I haven't revealed who I am. Well I'm Michael Zaldua. It's incomplete because I don't want my whole name. I was born on November 23, 1992 at Chinesee General Hospital in Manila but I was really supposed to be born on Los Angeles, California. So I guess I should move on to the better part, favorites.:))

Food: Pesto, #4 Cheese pizza of Yellow Cab, Charlie Chan pasta again of yc, California maki, chicken Karaage

Resto: Don Henrico's, Yellow Cab, Teriyaki Boy, Teriyaki Kid and Tokyo Tokyo

Song: 21 Guns, Your Guardian Angel, Not A Second To Waste- ARTTM, True, Disappear- Motion City Soundtrack, Like We Used To- ARTTM, Baby Blue Eyes- ARTTM

Band: Boys Like Girls, A Rocket To The Moon, Green Day, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Place: Honolulu, Mililani or any other place in Hawaii:)

Movie: Forrest Gump, Lilo and Sticth, One More Chance

School: obviously, DLSU Philippines. I'm from DLSU-D. I used to like ADMU but I turned it down because of the scandal.

Book: Bob Ong books, except Stainless Longanisa and Alamat ng Gubat. Tuesdays with Morrie

Subject: World History and Asian History but I can also deal with Philippine History. I like History yet I'm taking up Marketing and Advertising Management.xD I also somewhat like Algebra:)

Shirt/ Brand: Abercrombie and Fitch, Hollister, Billabong, Quiksilver, Dolce and Gabbana, Burberry, Hurley, and Penshoppe

Slippers: Reef, Quiksilver, Billabong, Havaianas

PC: macbook, macbook pro, macbook air.

car: chevrolet optra and ford focus

Well that's me. It seems that I have the colonial mentality but I'm not. I guess I got this attitude towards material things from traveling.xD That's why I describe myself as perfectly imperfect:)

hustlers grab your gun :)

We've be on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for number one
California, here we come
Right back where we started from

Well, hustlers grab your guns
The shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California, here we come
Right back where we started from

California
Here we come

On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing's gonna stop me now
California, here we come
Right back where we started from

Peddle to the floor
Thinking of you more
Gotta get us to the show
California, here we come
Right back where we started from

California
Here we come

California
California
Here we come
Ohhh

California
California
Here we come

California
California
Here we come

California
California
Here we come

California
California
Here we come

~ I'm missing L.A. very much. So I decided not to go to Honolulu this year but to California. It has been 11 years since my last visit. Obviously many things have changed there. I can't argue with this fact since I've enjoyed Hawaii very much that I wouldn't mind seeing LA for a long time. Now the time has come.California here I come, right back where I started from.:) May 21,22:30,

the list :)

We'll I just want you to know what's playing on my iPod. I'm just going to give you the list of my iPod "chart toppers" based on its own counting. Here's the 25 out of 700 songs that made it to the list :)

1. The Show- Lenka- 84 plays
2. Simulan Mo Na- pedicab- 83 plays
3. 21 Guns- Green Day- 82 plays
   
4. Not A Second To Waste- A Rocket To The Moon- 69 plays
5. Tell Me Your Name- Christian Bautista- 68 plays
6. Bad Romance(Live on Ellen)- Lady GaGa- 62 plays
7. One Step At A Time- Jordin Sparks- 43 plays
8. A Little Too Not Over You- David Archuleta- 40 plays
9. Broken Strings- James Morrison Ft. Nelly Furtado- 38 plays
10. Halo/ Walking On Sunshine- Female Cast of Glee- 35 plays
11. Sa Kanya- M.Y.M.P- 33 plays
12. Harder Than You Know- 31 plays
13. One Time- Justin Bieber- 31 plays
14. Do I Make You Proud- Taylor Hicks- 30 plays
15. Fireflies- Owl City-27 plays
16. Gossip Girl Opening Credits- Gossip Girl- 26 plays
17. Can't Help Falling In Love- A*Teens- 25 plays
18. True- Ryan Cabrera- 22 plays
19. Two Is Better Than One- Boys Like Girls Ft. Taylor Swift- 21 plays
20. I Caught Myself- Paramore- 21 plays
21. Paris For President- Paris Hilton- 20 plays
22. Halo- Beyonce- 19 plays
23. Love Drunk- Boys Like Girls- 18 plays
24. Mr. Right- A Rocket To The Moon- 18 plays
25. Grow Old With You- Adam Sandler- 16 plays

Runners up?:)
Para Lang Sa'Yo-Aiza Siguerra- 11 plays
Strawberry Swing- Coldplay- 14 plays
Good Girls Go Bad- Cobra Starship Ft. Leighton Meester- 12 plays
21 Guns- Green Day with the cast of American Idiot: The Musical- 13 plays
Awit ng Barkada- Itchyworms- 13 plays
Aloha E Komo Mai- Lilo and Stitch- 11 plays
One Less Lonely Girl- Justin Bieber- 11 plays
Bulletproof- La Roux- 14 plays
My Heart- Paramore- 11 plays
California- Phantom Planet- 11 plays
I Believe In Us- A Rocket To The Moon- 11 plays
I'll Be Your Sunset- A Rocket To The Moon- 13 plays
Your Call- Secondhand Serenade- 12 plays
Hiling- Silent Sanctuary- 13 plays
I Can Wait Forever- Simple Plan- 13 plays
Walking On Sunshine- Various Artists- 13 plays
Forevermore- Side A- 11 plays

The chart- topper by the time I have reached the 1000th song will be the opening song for the playlist that won't skip any song. Also the chart- topper by October 29, 2010, 1st year of the iPod, will also receive the same honor. :)

chicken :)

I just remembered anc's commercial on politicians saying that "is your candidate a chicken?", then I remembered chowking's orange chicken. I just thought of one candidate. haha. Just imagine Villar's face on the orange of that viand!haha. If that's the case, I won't eat the food cause if I do maybe I'll be swimming on a sea of trash!haha..Just kidding I won't eat it because I may have the tendency to become a big fat liar! He's a liar!

i just noticed..:)

I just noticed now that in my blog posts , almost every post's font color differs from each other. Well, I really did that to show my emotions but the violet post doesn't mean that I'm lonely.:) It means something:)

orange vs. orange:)

Here's my view on Villar's campaign jingles. I'll post the lyrics too.:)

1st jingle:

Nakaligo ka na ba sa dagat ng basura?

- This is very ridiculous! Is there a normal person who will take a bath on a sea of trash? Unless your insane or playing but being on a normal state of mind, even the poorest of the poor won't do that since they know that they will only get dirtier!

Nag-Pasko ka na ba sa gitna ng kalsada?

- Well this one is possible but only kids do this! They are the "namamasko po kids."

Yan ang tanong namin…

- Well it's also my question if Villar had done this all!!
Tunay ka bang isa sa amin?

- I guess he isn't. If they're family can afford a loan of 60,000 before the 90's, his mother must have a large income!

Nalaman mo na bang mapapag-aral ka nya?

- I guess it shouldn't be said that "mapapag-aral ka NIYA."He's not using his own money to fund public school's, it's the people's money! Tsaka, he may help you but isn't that public schools are for free? It's now up to you if you'll study or not.
Tutulungan tayo para magkatrabaho?

- For this one, it's a bit correct since he could help stabilize the economy but still, this reliew on a person's willingness to study and get a job.
At kanyang plano’y magkabahay tayo?

- Yup, he can do that. He'll be selling houses to all of us, wherein the common price range for the cheapest is more than 2 million.

Si Villar ang tunay na mahirap.

- If he is, show any proof that will suspend those accusations.
si Villar ang tunay na may malasakit.

- If he does, can he help without any media surrounding him?
Si Villar ang may kakayahan
At gumawa ng sariling pangalan.

- Is he saying that he's the only one among the presidentiables who had made their names? Probably on corruption. But how about Gordon? Gordon's a great person, not many knows his roots.

Si Manny Villar ang magtatapos
ng ating kahirapan.

- And the finale! Damn, does he think at all? No one can cure the current situation of the country! It takes the whole nation to cure it!

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The other jingle synthesis will be posted tomorrow. I'm to lazy to think right now.:)

one more chance?

Once there was a man and a woman whom have known each other for a long time but have been friends for over a year. The man chose to be friends with her since he was attracted to the woman for sometime now. He would reach out to her every now and then. He knows that the said attraction had grew even stronger and had transformed into love. He would reach out to her more often and would feel very upset if he wasn't able to talk for her in a day. His love grew even deeper as time went by, it grew that even his love for himself was almost unseen. But in this feeling, he was afraid to express it to her because he doesn't want their friendship to end by just telling her that he loves her so much, believing on what he has seen on tv, cinemas and friends. By that time, he said this: "Alam mo kung ano yung masakit? Yung alam mo yung nararamdaman mo para sa isang tao, sigurado ka na mahal mo yun, pero hindi mo masabi. Takot ka akong mawala yung meron kami ngayon. Pero alam mo kung ano yung mas masakit? Yung alam na alam mo na yung nararamdaman mo at handa ka ng sabihin sa kanya pero hindi mo na masabi kasi meron na siyang iba." His love for this woman was unconditional. He even made a way for them to be closer by telling her that she should use this, knowing him that by using this application he can somewhat own this person. But it was just an application, anyone can take away everyone you own. Somebody can take that someone away in just a blink of an eye. He knew that for a fact in that application but in reality he also believes in that. he would always buy her whenever somebody buys her back. But the time came that he couldn't buy her anymore. Just like the same scenario in the application, it also happened in real life. He lost connections to her, they would talk to each other very seldom. But the worse part is, he knew that he had two other competitors, his own friend and a varsity player. He watched his friends tactics. The said friend already gave up the fight after a few weeks but for him, the fight isn't over. He also knew for a fact, also his friend (a classmate of her), that the woman already knows that he loves her. So he tried to call to call her and tell her that he loves her. He would just call since he many things to do and she has many things do do also. It's not that he can't make any time for her but knowing that she's too busy to entertain people. So the said scenario was seen for more months. But a news came to him. He knew that the woman was like taken. He grew sad..but he didn't want everyone to see that he was weak so he was like very jolly in everytime he would talk to people,,but deep inside he was really sad.

status

Again, i don't know what to right in here. I'm just messed up..Earlier today I got my grade and retorika blew my chance on becoming a dean's lister by just around less than 3 points. As I have said last night, I'm also confused with my feelings,,yes I have somewhat confirmed that she already had a boyfriend. At first I was like "ah, ok" but it had sinked in now,, as of this writing I just stopped crying and soon I might cry again. All I want to do now is to watch One More Chance and let the movie ease what I am feeling right now. I guess with this thing I was extremely wrong. I won't blame her for what's happening with me now, the only person to be blamed for this is me! I have fallen so much that nothing was left for me.I'll try to rebuild myself as early as posssible. I hope that the California trip next month would help me fix myself. I'll start a journey of more than 10000 miles, and 12 hours long to help me rebuild myself..But still, i must admit, I still love her..and I hope,,after this feeling has gone away,, someone will fill this empty spot..Yet she's very significant in my life, she melted my stone heart..

harder than you know..

I really don't know how to put this post in order. All I want to do right now is to cry and cry until I can already make up a river but I can't. I can't because first it's impossible and even tough my eyes are filled with tears now, it seems that my tear gland stops the tears from pouring. I want to cry for a very simple yet important matter, as usual her.

I checked on my messenger just moments ago. I didn't saw that she's currently online. Well as my curiosity over threw my thoughts, I checked on a site whether if she's online or not. It showed that she's online but on my profile she isn't..why could be the reason?

current status: confused,,i just want to cry,,i think she already knows,,and i must admit that i my mind thinks that 55% that she already has a boyfriend..

what i realized in this situation is that i should have never fallen in love with her so deeply..i guess it's time to move on but..something stops me from doing that..my brain says that i should move on,,but my heart says i shouldn't..now i believe what they mean with that line..well,,i believe on it now..i'll just observe some more instances and if it won't change,,i will move on..:'(

i remembered what my friend, Farrell(the poem's composer) said to me that maybe a better person would come along our lives..also what Popoy said on One More Chance to his friend that,"kayta tayo iniiwan ng mga taong mahal natin ay dahil mayroong mas magandang darating sa buhay natin.."

well i can now really say that she's the only exception cause she's the first girl that i seriously love and i've fallen to stupidity just to keep this feeling alive..:(

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NOTE:

I just discovered that ym is like having a problem,,she's now just invisible,,just like me,,haha..well,,she's always invi in ym,,just like also me..xD

Love is Different from Loved

I'm standing here amidst the crowd
filled with anguish and doubt...
In this place where there's turmoil
all i can hold on to is the soil..

as i kneel down and cry
pe0ple stop and wonder why
why this man is crying
what they don't know is that im dying..

Dying cause of this pain you inflicted
the pain of being rejected.............



As i looked in a mirror...
i seen a man deprived of honor..
A man that's lonely..
from something that's not worthy..

I looked into him more closely..
and said to him very calmy..
"pick yourself out of this rubble
you'll only stoop down and stumble"

right from that moment i knew...
all this confusions you made are through....


I've lost much time thinking of you...
now i decided this charade is through..
So now i dont feel sad and angry
all i can feel is pity...

i pity your lack of becoming...
i pity you for being uncaring..
i pity you for loving him
as much as I LOVED YOU..

My current status: single but taken yet confused. I'm single but I still love her, with all my heart but I don't know if she has somebody else already. I hope she doesn't have. One time I was surfing the net and I came across the chat box I talked to her but it was somebody else who had opened it..:l Yet they don't have any pictures together and single status..:l

I know I'm a sucker for this feeling..Yes,the line came from A Rocket To The Moon's song Like We Used To. Try to listen to it..it's good,,you may cry..then watch One More Chance and you will surely cry..

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The poem above was composed by my friend Farrell Angelo Diaz. He composed it for a girl whom he loved and it turned out that the girl has somebody else.